You sound like you still have scars from Windows ME and they have never healed.
That could very well be around the time the beatings started. However, I
This reminds me of how I once had a friend who, unbeknownst to me, placed a piece of self-made software on my computer that would play the Windows 95 sound every half hour or so (at this time, I did not have a password on my computer, and did not lock it).
The person probably did this because, when I'd hear the Windows 95 sound, I'd say, "die", for some reason that I no longer remember. But presumably was because of being annoyed with Windows for one reason or another.
And, when I heard the sound after _years_ of not thinking about it, I immediately felt compelled to say, "die".
I would have thought that my brain would have overwritten that by now, but nope. Clearly scarred.
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